isn’t it good enough to be 2nd? why must be the best? how can everyone be the first? are there many people who just want to be normal? (read: in the middle mass of a normal distribution)

I don’t think I wanna be kept alive for very long if I go into an unconscious state (either coma, or awake but not conscious). Let’s make it no longer than 3 months, or whatever time that 50% of available monetary resources can, whichever time is shorter. I love life. So if I can’t enjoy it, fuck it.

I somehow got stuck with another of Cheer’s song.

Song of the Moment: 陈绮贞 – 鱼

if i really become a lecturer, i will ask the students to write an app for 1 semester, then swap their projects in the next semester and ask them to add a module to it.

I know I have 160 characters per SMS, so when I was tasked to tell everyone the meeting plan, I threw in the following:

Let’s gather in tamp at 6 tonight for a xxx dinner. xxx please help to spread the word to xxx. Bless us all…

Different replies came back, the best:

Amen.

Song of the Moment: Michael Buble – Home

just some notes to myself.

Nice ferry.
Lok kok ferry terminal.
Comfortable bus transfer.
Confusing reception.
Old villa.
Room features e.g. toilet, kitchen, aircon below average, just passed the usable mark.
Bed not bad, maybe because i only have a mattress.
TV has many channels.
Many flies and insects.
Caught a toad.
Beautiful pools.
Fine soft sand.
Seas not clear. (where got clear water? Phuket got?)
Food below average for given price.
Massage ok, i think preferred Batam. But free SUV transport was good.
Glad didn’t do anything much.

i’m so lazy.

Song of the Moment: 林宥嘉 – 伯乐

bathroom wall tile spoil.
bathroom door spoil.
washing machine spoil.
aircon spoil.
fan spoil.

Song of the Moment: 南拳妈妈 – 下雨天

I strolled in the rain again today. Still feels great but again worried about getting my stuff like phone and wallet wet. I’ve always wished I’d walk the way I wanna walk. Hm. Hard to describe.

I wonder why walking in the rain will become sick. Does it mean showering with water will become sick?

I read the lyrics of “Love, Me” again recently. I had seen the lyrics before, but this time when I read the 2nd chorus, I had a revelation. I guess that’s why I fail literature.

I read a note my grandma wrote back in 1923
Grandpa kept it in his coat and he showed it once to me
He said boy you might not understand
But a long, long time ago
Grandma’s daddy didn’t like me none
But I love your grandma so

We had this crazy plan to meet
And run away together
Get married in the first town we came to and live forever
But nailed to the tree where we were supposed to meet instead
I found this letter
And this is what it said

* If you get there before I do
Don’t give up on me
I’ll meet you when my chores are through
I don’t know how long I’ll be
But I’m not gonna let you down
Darling wait and see
And between now and then ‘til I see you again
I’ll be loving you, love me

I read those words just hours before my grandma past away
In the door way of a church
Where me and grandpa stopped to pray
I know I’d never seen him cry in all my 15 years
But as he said these words to her
His eyes filled up with tears

Repeat *

In the 1st chorus, Grandpa gets there first, and Grandma wrote a note to tell Grandpa to wait for her. The note was literal.

In the 2nd chorus, Grandma will get “there” before Grandpa does. But Grandpa tells Grandma he’ll join her, yet he does not know how long he’ll be.

A similar story happened in JJ’s “会有那么一天“. I wonder if it was modeled after the same song.

一九四三 世界大战
阿嬷年轻的时候
爷爷爱他那么多
他们感情很深

但是爷爷 身负重任
就在离乡的那夜
给了阿嬷一个吻
轻声说到

* 我要离去 别再哭泣
不要伤心 请你相信我
要等待 我的爱
陪你永不离开
因为会有那么一天
我们牵着手在草原
听 鸟儿歌唱的声音
听我说声 我爱你

夕阳西下 鸟儿回家
阿嬷躺在病床上
呼吸有一点散漫
眼神却很温柔
看着爷爷 湿透的眼
握着他粗糙的手
阿嬷的泪水开始流
轻声说道

Repeat *

I haven’t been updating a lot, as I’ve been using my handphone to get online since I came back. The keypad is slowly getting to me that I’m seriously considering a new one. I’m on my laptop today because I decided to grab some new songs.

Work has been creeping up on me, in a coincidence that it’s June again, or otherwise. Even so leisure has been quite balanced for me lately. So it seems sports is the lacking factor. Let’s see how it works out next month.

Song of the Moment: 南拳媽媽 – 牡丹江